So I feel like I've been so focused on just trying to keep my shit together and make sure the number on the scale is going down instead of up, that I haven't really been trying to figure out what comes next for me. Now, granted, I've been sick what feels like constantly since the beginning of November, and that has taken a giant toll on me physically, emotionally, and mentally. I'm constantly worried that I have something worse that I do, and that I'm dying, and that causes all kinds of issues in my mind. But I have got to quit dwellling in the the bad, and start moving toward the good.
I've lost almost 70 pounds in just over 2 years, and I'm starting to feel like I can move more. I am finding that I'm gaining my flexibility back. Yesterday, I realized I can cross my legs now...more like a man than a lady still, but it's still cool that I can do that without hurting myself and having to force my foot up on my knee. It's the little things like that people that really make you realize you actually ARE losing weight. It also makes you realize just how hard all that weight is to manage. I also notice I walk differently. I am starting to walk with my feet closer together rather than with my toes pointing out. I'm carrying less weight, and my body is thanking me for it.
Anyways, the point of this post is that I've been thinking about what kind of physical activities can I take on this summer that will help keep me active, but also be fun. I told myself way back at the beginning of this weight loss journey that I would buy myself a kayak when I lost 100 pounds. The main reason I said after 100 pounds was because I didn't want to have to spend extra money to buy a kayak that can accomodate more weight. I'm finally getting to where I don't have to worry about that as much. I do start getting anxious thinking about drowning but I know to wear a life jacket in open water, and I won't be doing any kayaking in the river at all. Just quiet streams and along the shores of the lake. I wondered for a while if I was only thinking I wanted to do this because it's something hubby likes to do and then we can have something to do together, but I have always thought it would be fun. I'm even considering getting a 2 seater so me and the kiddo can kayak together and hubby in his own.
I think it would be fun. I really do. Until I lose another 100 pounds and feel ready to take on snowboarding or something.
